why is everything looks so horrible ??

i opened my blog , i reread all of that.. and guess what ??
i guess whoever read it will felt "why my life looks so horrible?"
by the way , i'm happy with my life !!
even i know i just wrote some of my bad day,but it's just a story.. story of my life..
and i know,not everything about my life and my husbands seems to be so patethic or something

hahhahahha

guys , i don't wanted to makes you cry,or thinking that i'm a ungrateful person or whatever..
but i know what i wrote to..
i know what i'm felt now..
and.. i don't know what i have to say ...

LoL

good morning guys..

i.......

i don't know how am i feeling now..
i always felt .. now you make me in love with you , then few hours later you make me feel so blue ..
i wish i was wrong.. something wrong with you..
i don't know.. i know you better than yourself #maybe..
but i know,when you feel uncomfortable with me,or something that i didn't understand..
and it's hurt me alot..
and you know,i'm crying behind your back so many times...
just because i've got your back when i went to sleep or when i feel so lonely but in fact i was right there with you..
please tell me that you love me ..
i need you to tell me that you love me,that you need me .. as much as i need you.. as much as i love you..

sometimes i wondered..
if you were cheating behind my back or if you were met your ex-girlfriend when you're alone..
or i don't know..
even i have to thinking that you were not loved me ...
and sometimes i wish i do that..
sometimes i wish that we have to end our love..
sometimes i wish that we have to end our married..
sometimes i wish i can be alone without you..
but sometimes i know all that my wishes just lies..it's just an emotional condition or something like that..
and i wish we would be forever..
even if i have to cry for you,or die with you..
its just too little to much you know...

hahhahhaha

i love you darling..

as always ..