Me and Demon

here is some of my picture with my bestfriends "Demonicer" or "Diana Dewi" and i used to call her "Demon" this is the first time we met,. and you know,i'm really really happy with that.. we know each other about last year.. and now it's already a years.. and i love her so muchh.. she's older than me,but sometimes it feel she's more childish than me :D i love you nyetttttt <3

Ternyata mereka......

Udah biasa lah kalo kita lihat para pengamen,tukang minta-minta (fakir miskin) dann teman-temannya.. tapi taukah kalian,berapa banyak penghasilan mereka sehari-hari ?? terutama mereka yg mencari penghasilan di jalan raya,perempatan jalan,ataw di tempat-tempat umum lainnya... Ceritanya gini.. Sekarang nih,saya lagi running event di salah satu SPBU di Bandung.. lokasi SPBU nya emang di dekat perempatan jalan,dan rame banget lahh.. Disitu banyak banget pengamen,peminta-minta,dan tukang jualan lainnya... karna sebagian besar mereka setiap hari menukarkan penghasilan mereka ke SPBU,jadi saya tau orang-orangnya yg mana aja,dan apa kerjaan mereka.. tapi suatu hari,karna SPBU lagi sepi,saya penasaran liat ibu-ibu daritadi siang bolak-balik nukerin uank penghasilan dia bekerja dan minta-minta ke salah satu operatot SPBU.. dan begitu saya tanya kepada ibu tersebut saya kaget karna begitu saya tanya berapa penghasilan dia perhari dia hanya jawab "ah sakedik neng ayeuna mahh" ( ah cuman sedikit neng sekarang ) Alhasil saya dan teman menghitung sekantong uang receh yg dia tukarkan.. dan ternyata dari 1kantong uang receh itu terhitung semua ada Rp.65000 .. dan setelah itu,si ibu mengeluarkan dompet yg isinya ternyata uang koin juga !! and well finaly si ibu menjumlahkan semua dan total yg dia tukarkan saat itu adalah Rp.100.000 !! saya kaget,saya sedih,saya merasa sakit hati.. tau kenapa ?? dulu saya selalu mementingkan memberi mereka yg menurut saya lebih "SUSAH" dibanding saya dan keluarga,lebih susah dibanding bi uwen (tukang cuci) dirumah saya,karna ternyata penghasilan mereka perhari lebih besar drpda saya yg harus bekerja 8jam/hari yang dibayar hanya setengah dari penghasilan si ibu tadi ! ya Tuhan... maafkan saya karna saya salah kalo berfikir ternyata mereka lebih susah drpda keluarga saya,.. bahkan terkadang saya gak peduli kalo ternyata ibu kandung saya sendiri membutuhkan uluran tangan saya,membutuhkan biaya tambahan dr saya.. sedangkan saya lebih mementingkan merka yg pada kenyataannya lebih berada dibanding keluarga saya... mungkin catatan ini salah,tapi ya,keluarga saya ternyata jauh lebih sengsara darpipada mereka yg berpenghasilan 100ribu/hari,yg ternyata dia bilang bahwa sejumlah uang itu hanya sedikit :(

Happy Valentines Day a.k.a Chocolate Day

Valentine's day .... everybody's out there celebrate today...
everything about the sweetest things for our beloved person,
family,boyfriends/girlfriends,bestfriends,friends,everyone !!!!!!
and everybody loves today wether they're care or not about today..
but from the deepest of our heart,we know we care about today,about love :)

and my husbands gave me this one today ><
and its make my day wonderfull enough :) :*
















Well ,
Happy Valentines Day Everybody :*

why is everything looks so horrible ??

i opened my blog , i reread all of that.. and guess what ??
i guess whoever read it will felt "why my life looks so horrible?"
by the way , i'm happy with my life !!
even i know i just wrote some of my bad day,but it's just a story.. story of my life..
and i know,not everything about my life and my husbands seems to be so patethic or something

hahhahahha

guys , i don't wanted to makes you cry,or thinking that i'm a ungrateful person or whatever..
but i know what i wrote to..
i know what i'm felt now..
and.. i don't know what i have to say ...

LoL

good morning guys..

i.......

i don't know how am i feeling now..
i always felt .. now you make me in love with you , then few hours later you make me feel so blue ..
i wish i was wrong.. something wrong with you..
i don't know.. i know you better than yourself #maybe..
but i know,when you feel uncomfortable with me,or something that i didn't understand..
and it's hurt me alot..
and you know,i'm crying behind your back so many times...
just because i've got your back when i went to sleep or when i feel so lonely but in fact i was right there with you..
please tell me that you love me ..
i need you to tell me that you love me,that you need me .. as much as i need you.. as much as i love you..

sometimes i wondered..
if you were cheating behind my back or if you were met your ex-girlfriend when you're alone..
or i don't know..
even i have to thinking that you were not loved me ...
and sometimes i wish i do that..
sometimes i wish that we have to end our love..
sometimes i wish that we have to end our married..
sometimes i wish i can be alone without you..
but sometimes i know all that my wishes just lies..it's just an emotional condition or something like that..
and i wish we would be forever..
even if i have to cry for you,or die with you..
its just too little to much you know...

hahhahhaha

i love you darling..

as always ..