if u ever listen to me ...

GOD ..
if u ever listen to me , give me more patients .. more tears and more hearts ..
i don't know how to through all of thiss part ..
i don't want my life destroy .. slowly or faster :(

pliss open his mind . that he already hurting me so much :(
don't let me think i have to end this ..
i don't want to .. but i don't have any option to do ..
i just pray and cry ..
even sometimes i have to cry a lot :(

GOD u know me , u know what happened to me ..
i just want have some happy story to tell to my child some day , i don't want to tell my child a lot of sad story ..
but he's dissapoint me , he's hurt me , a lot ..
even more than once ..
i just married for a month ..
what will happened in next 2nd month ??
or next year [ if i still survive with all this fucking messing ]  ?
u know what happened to me , it'll be better or worst ..
but , just give me a happy life ..
a normal husban [ my dream husban ] , till i ain't feel that i'm marry wrong guy ..

GOD , Please listen to me ..

hayley williams

i just wanna say i love her so much :)

everything happens for a reason

kebiasaan saya adalah ..
apa yg saya tidak suka , dan pernah menganggu pikiran saya ,
maka itu akan ada dipikiran saya selamanya ..
selama saya merasa hal itu mengganggu dan menyakiti saya ..
ataw akan menyakiti saya tepatnya ..

everything makes me uncomforable !!!
i should make a happy story , about my new life with my husban and his family ..
but i'm not ..
i'm not happy with my life , even it's make my life easier than before
but i don't know ..
sometimes i feel everything around me already changes to be stranger >.<
i wish it is just my bad think , not more ..

and god , if listen to me ..
please help me :(
sometimes i miss when i'm just in a relationship with him ..
sometimes i feel "in relationship is the best way than now" :(
did i wrong ??
of course !!!
i just wanna ask my husban , if i ever make a mistake , tell me ..
but don't ignore me like i'm just his wife who will meet him in our home :(

i don't know i will survive or not ,,
but i knnow i have , i must , i should to pass all of this ...
i will !!

someone tell me , i have to talk to him ..
talk about what i'm thingking about him !!
but i can't .. i already know his answer , i already know his personality , and i already know his changing ! :(

it's gonna be disaster :(

God , i believe that u always have a great plan for me ...

Saya menikah pada 22 April 2011 ..
and u know ?
its gonna be 2 weeks now ..
dan saya sedih , merasa semuanya berubah ..
suami saya , teman saya , keluarga mertua saya :(
Lord , saya harap ini perasaan saya saja ..
saya gak sampai hati klo suami saya benar-benar berubah hanya karna kami sudah "MENIKAH" ..

apa semua pasangan berubah ketika sudah menikah ??
apa perubahan dibutuhkan setelah menikah ??
saya merasa itu tidak perlu ..
berubahlah jika itu memang diperlukan , jika tidak untuk apa ??
untuk menyakiti salah satu pihak ?
ohh , ataw hanya untuk terlihat lebih normal ???
ataw lebih karna "BOSAN" ??
oh Lord .. :((

kalaw memang ini perubahan karna saya , karna sifat saya ..
saya maw berubah untuk perbaiki semuanya ..
tapi kalo semua perubahan ini karna suami saya yg bosan , jenuh ataw apalah ..
saya gak taw harus berbuat apa ..

i'm supposed to be happy !!!!
SUPPOSED ????
i don't know really ...
am i supposed to be happy ????


yeah , saya akui .. senang awalnya menikah dengan pria yg saya sayang ..
dan saya bahagia ...
then why i have to be sad ???
i don't understand even when i ask my self ..
but it's really really hard when u know that u'r husban change to be the other personality ..
it's just 2 week .. how about 2 months later ??? or 1 year later ????

:( :( :((

PARAMORE COME TO INDONESIA !!!!

http://youtu.be/pnu4WUxm0sc?hd=1
Finally PARAMORE come to indonesiaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

august 17 and 19 2011 ..

i'm so excited for that ...
even i have waiting till august , but i will do it :D


LOVE PARAMORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Wedding :)

22April was my wedding day ...

i'm so happy ...
finnaly we're married :)

     

i hope it's gonna be my everlast ...


coz i love him so much ,












and we're so happy ...
all of us so happy with our wedding ....











and my dreams come true ..

to be his wife , to be girl so lucky with my own life , with my husban ...